a family of deer I found. Pretty

ready now

I'm just looking back,
taking a second and really seeing..
who I was...even just six months ago,

T and I have been talking about it for a while..
I have been thinking about it even longer...

ever since that time this past July,
when we thought I was..

And I am ready to now...

This is Matt, Kevins oldest son. He turn 19 tomorrow, the 26th. The guy behind him is Mitch, he was temporary labor. Matt has a lot in him, strengths, potential that I don't think he sees. If he really focused, I think he'd be a great success. I suppose I may have a hand in it If I chose, I should, I owe it to Kevin......

cheese! Hapiness is good!

taking away from me..

so quickly as he entered my life, he was gone,

Kevin passed away last friday,19th,
The whole family was there...That afternoon,
Lesley watched him take his last breath...

I remember driving to work with him. We would get up and leave together...
Roll one up and have a puff on the way to pick up Matt from Bedford...

After a Timmies run and another puff with Matt, off we headed to clayton park for a days work as Tapers...

It was wonderful. We listened to my Fathers Oakley album..

Many weekedns we would chill at Lesleys with Mitch and some beer. Watch the football games from the balcony....pizza, Playstaion2 teken 4, ....Thats when the new radio station, Z103.5 came out, I remember that.
So high.....Lost in ourselves..
watching the stars....
Partys, nights out at reflections...
Work, no work..
Smoking all day...
Crisp cool air , fall was setting in...
Working on Chebucto Rd, Lesley working with us.....
Kevin would insist on drivin me to Park Vic when I would head out for the weekend....
We'd listen to Rock n roll Gypsies....we lived it all..

I miss you so much now, I never got to talk. I never got to apoligize for how it went bad.....I never got to say thank you either...
I procrastinated...I thought I had more time....
But I knew,
And I know,
That time...
is something we really dont
have a lot of...
I love so much...and it will hurt each time I lose that love...but this is inevitable.....
This is life...
So real.
so raw..
...