Dinner Time

did you know I love the loud music at a Club? I love the hard pounding beats. The Bass makes my whole body vibe in unision. I can't get enough when the time is right.

But then. I love the soft melody of a simple Piano tune. The Ghostly air of Bjork or haunting tunes of GoldFrapp. Portishead or Tracy Chapman. And oh Tom waits you make me shiver with such pleasure ;) Jazzy drunken piano whisky music... Hee hee


Ahhhhh


I love black. But oh I love white too.


I want it all at the same time.
Do you know how Beautiful it feels? to have that freedom? that I recognize the talent in a song or piece of music, and that is what attracts me to it. (If you can feel the passion behind the song.)
ie the emotion the artist origianlly felt or had about the piece.




I can get sooooo caught up in it...

Uh oh. Pastas boiling..


;)

I watch you move...

I watch you

watching me...

and you like how I sit,

with my hands over my face....

cause tonight..
her we are again...

in the darkness of this hallway

blowing up again...

chocking on the pain

and I feel so drained....


I can't feel anymore,
like I used to

you won't even let me sleep......


and I'm so

so tired....


so tired
so tired

I believed you would...

I trusted....you

but I really

Left it all up to me...


so I guess I can't be mad

if I never

believed you anyway.

You know how I think?

I believe that no one is above anyone else.

More blabber from the dawn

Waiting,
for the aftershocks.
Knowing they will come,

but only after I stop thinking about it.....

Should I leave this place? and run?
I might get caught in this swirling disaster...

I feel akward and clumsy. I know I may not make it,
I might fall, and possibly sprain my ankle...

Then I'd really be screwed..lol

But seriously. Its so close.....you know...
I could just ...do it.

It would be so exciting....
ah ..
we will see

Thoughts for Thoughts?...

Taking some time off again...

We've been going down town, playing these games every weekend now this year....

You get a sense of split personality....

Wild and livin on a bit of an edge....late nights, party smiles and dancin till the sun comes up....

but with that commitment you lose your "me time"

Working all day by the time I get home I don't feel like much,
I suppose it may be the end of my winter blues, I dance it all out on the dance Floor..jeeze there where two weekends in a row..no three, wherewe were partyin all night both nights!

Ahh, good times thou.

Spring is just around the corner with the Promise of long days on my skateboard
and smokin on the commons layin on the grass watching clouds roll by...

blasting Bjork and Portishead throu my earphones, lost in my own world ..
thinking about possibilities and dreams...

I can't wait for Evolve 9!!
I can't wait to go camping, swimming at Chocolate Lake, Biking around the city walks on the Wharf downtown!!!

Ahhh life. Sometimes so rich with color and opportunities and endless possibilities...

I hate the days I can't see all those things....... and I have them often, but comfort and tolerance comes form knowing that we all go throu this...


;)

Cheers