ashes

Let go of your anxieties
Give them to him,
the pale man on the black horse

He will take them from you
He will take them from you


Let go of all your pain,
Give it all to him,

and he will take it from you
he will take it from you

Let go of your soul
Give it to him

and he will take it from you
he will take it from you

scream and hate and hate and hate and hate until it burns
untill it burns until it burns until it burns
and it will burn


and he will take it from you
and he will take it from you
and he will take it from you
and he will take it from you
from you
from you
from you
from you

M. Oakley (C)

I'll be in school this time next week.
Good to feel this change.

Feeling older for sure.
a sense of age..

"sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.."


can't explain one damn thing

explosive thoughts

just barley controled,
if anything, held back.

just barely...

like standing on the edge of a cliff
on a windy day...

This Time

Almost a month ago tomorrow..

He came back into my life.

Him
the one.

Craig Theriault.

I remember how it felt the last time.

In the begining anyway...
How I slowley began to fall ....

Right from the start.

Those eyes...
so solid and full of life...



but he didn't feel like that then...

and I ended up chasing after a shadow....


It is always heartbreaking

to have to let go

of someone you care about...

and even more

to let go

of someone who never cared for you...

and never knew how much you really cared...

or loved....

I had just bought that new Hinder album. I totally killed "shoulda", "By the way" and "Better than me".


Who was I anyway?

To come into his life

and demand my feelings be recognized

when he was only trying to figure out his own.





Everything ultimatly worked out for both of us though.

And here we are.

Even better than before,

and open

feeling everything

sharing,

experiening

exploring

planning together...

loving together....




This time....

I hope is the last time.