what happened?

so strange

so quickly it turned


I had control


and know I only think I do...



It slipped away



just like you did


but this is a lie



just like you were




oh wait...



Whats this.... ?

I was sleeping..




dreaming...


now


wide awake

Craig Theriault

burning.....searing.......unforgiving

memories of your face...

Ripping....tearing......bleeding

I'm falling out of place

nothing leaves me all alone here

but everything I do,

and I cant erase you from my mind

and I cant stop loving you

The days have blended into nights

and bottles into lines

piss my life and all its worth

gone, left all behind

rain falls everyday for me

even through your Sun

I cannot see in front of me

I'm letting go I'm Done.

nothing leaves me all alone here

but everything I do

and I cant erase you from my mind

and I cant stop loving you

Screaming....pounding......smashing fists

I tear into the wall

overwhelming....unrelenting......

for you I always fall......

with you

broken crushed smashed destroyed

my heart without your face

next to me,

in faith this was your place...

Darkness creeping, overwhelming

taking me into the night,

lonely dances, sinning faces

empty streets hold me tight.

I know I know where I went wrong,

but you gave it all up too,

you let it go, you lost control,

Hades:, take my soul.

I know I know I know I know

But I cant take this Pain.

I cant breath, I'm still choking

on all we never gained.

I'd bleed, I'd steal, I'd crawl, Id Kill

Just to smell you near,

fuck everything I ever knew,

Fuck all of this my dear.

So Ive come just to the edge,

and now I feel so raw

but who ever said real love was defined,

by any rule or law.

Yes! Id Jump off any cliff,

I'd pull the trigger too,

BABY!! BABY! I'd go any lengths,

JUST TO BE WITH YOU!!!

JUST TO FUCKING BE WITH YOU!!!!!!!

TO FUCKING BE WITH YOU!!!!

Goodbye 2009

It was all just a dream...
all the faces...
the sounds,
the tastes,

not mine,
like another world,
And we all just stood back and watched it fall and rise again

and fall once more..

i miss the lights the most

The Romance

There's a rhythm,
I've calculated,

that starts right about now..

in these moments of my life

Where time seems stretched over just one moment
in a matter of seconds..
Its fleeting,
Its enduring
a self perpetuating juncture

that occurs
and ends often..

It is reborn..
and dies just the same...

and I can't understand it,
I cant relive it
I cant remember it after it passes...

but I remember how it feels

and that

is all that I have left ...

for when it returns...

Always

its like moving in the dark

and I can't see a thing

I can't tell where i am or where I've ever been...



its like walking on the edge

of a cliff that reaches nowhere

I could fall or maybe even reach the other side

but I'm still here

I'm still here with you

with you
with you

it's like running in a dream

but only its a nightmare,

and I'm running from you (from you)


Its like drowning in the sea

at low tide

and my feet still touch the ground

but I'm still choking

I'm still choking

with you
with you


Its like waking up somewhere else

and the panic that swells up inside

looks like it really is high tide.

high time

with you
with you

with you with you


Its like holding hands and breathing your skin

but I'm holding myself and crumbling within.

It's like nothing and everything
when I am alone

and its always the same with you.

with you

with you



with you




with you

and the sun sets once again.....