..and to hurt...

minutes peel and fly away ...

these hours sting
like jelly fish in the ocean at my feet.

I can't see your face, there is too much black this time.

but nothing can stop you now...

your so far away now.

so far away
so far away

so far away from me..

where will you go tonight?

I try I try
I cry I cry.
I plead with you to stay...

but still you walk, still you run away..

like a dream I try to call to you..

but I can only whisper....

I can only watch you leave.

so far away
so far away
where will you go tonight?

Nothing

I feel like I am a rubber band. I am stretched too far and I am about to snap....

But I am so scared of what will become of me.

Only a short time ago things were looking bright and optimistic....
Now I feel like.......

Like Nothing....

like nothing will help......










and I can barley look at you,
but every time I do...

I feel the pain I've put you through...

I've hurt you .
I've lied to you.
I don't deserve you...

I hurt myself
I lie to myself
I don't deserve ...this life.

and to think I may not see you again...
brings forth an all consuming crushing pain..


but If I cannot save my own my own life...

I must spare those around me....


Time will heal your wounds

but nothing can heal mine.....

"I'm Selfish, Impatient, and a little insecure.
I make mistakes. I'm out of control
and at times hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at
my worst, then you sure as
hell don't deserve
me at my best"
Marilyn Monroe

Misunderstood

standing there......

I wish I could cover my ears.


Your eyes are screaming at me

but those feelings are not meant for me

some long buried hate?

for someone like me

perhaps..

I know you ache to be heard.

So do I.
We all do.

but you can't hear a thing.

It's been too long.

But still,

my eyes......

they only water.

with frustration

I am helpless.

so are you.

We all are.