what?

if you only had any idea of the insanity inside my head...

they'd lock me away for good.


and certainly through away the key ..
or give it to some German pharmaceutical company to carry out chemical experiments on me.


as Craig put it,
endless tunnels twisting every which way all leading nowhere or often right back where they started...

but its pretty colorful inside though!!! :)

I feel hopeless and hopeful all at once.
optimistic pessimist:(

totally fucked

I can't decided what I what to do

career

hobbies


I've got my fingertips dipped in so many bowls...
but it all seems pointless and a waste of time,

I feel like I cheat and lie to myself

but I feel so honest and real to myself

if I whole heartedly embrace my misfit self what would happen?

I deny, I change my mind, I go back to what I originally said and then I totally forget.
where is the beauty in this?

HA! I'll tell you, there most certainly is a challenge.

Do you know what its like to wake up to this head every day?


I love hating it and I hate...hating it I think..or what? what did I just say?

fuck...


Wish I could just win the lottery.