Ruin....

Here I find myself again,

I hate it all.

Every time you look at me…

Your eyes piercing right through me,

I can’t control it,

It’s like I’m lost inside someone else.

This can’t be me,

I would never do this,

To myself,

Feeling so used. Everything I did, just to get you to smile-

I regret it all.

And you just smiled at me as I left,

Closing the door behind me.

The couple in the elevator,

Didn’t see the tears .

But the wind wiped them away

Every step of my long walk home

I can still see your face looking up at me.

I could have sworn I heard your eyes crying out to me….

When you held me and took me home all those nights.

Lost in a blow of lights,

But it wasn’t me.

Because I could never be her…

And you just smiled at me as I left,

Closing the door behind me,

Your eyes piercing right through me…..

Didn’t see the tears…..

You could have been more….with me..